Well, I'm no longer angry about what's happened to the Trimarian Laurels' circle; I'm now at stage four in the Kübler-Ross model, having apparently skipped over the "bargaining" phase. (Not really much to bargain about in this situation.)
The very positive trend we were experiencing a couple of years ago is most definitely over (and has been so for a while now), and it doesn't look like there's much hope of getting back in the right direction anytime in the foreseeable future. I won't be able to get specific here, because if I did, I'd get hauled before the Laurels' House Un-Trimarian Activities Committee. (I wish that were an April Fools' joke.)
I used to come out of the meetings seething with anger at the way certain individuals were willfully destroying years of progress. But anger at the situation solves nothing, so now it merely saddens me to see the state to which we have devolved. And I don't even know why it had to be that way.
In the end, I guess it doesn't matter. All I can do is to be the best Laurel I can be. I do my duty to the Crown and Kingdom from which my titles and station have come; I do my duty as a Laurel at Arts and Sciences faires; I teach those who wish to learn from me; I strive to fulfill the duties of a Laurel as set out in Corpora; and I ask my pet question in candidate discussions,1 knowing it doesn't make a damn bit of difference to some, but hoping the Crown hears it and understands what it means.
And though it may earn me nothing but contempt, at least I can be true to myself, and to my belief about what a Laurel should be.
1. Well, in the future I shall have two pet questions, and I'm sure that instead of being answered with a simple "yes" or "no", it will elicit as much of a shit-storm as another Laurel's pet question always does. But I think it's important to at least ask it.